Everything
I've lived in Seattle since I graduated from highschool on the eastside (suburbs just don't cut it for me) 10 years ago and it has rendered me a lonely recovering suicidal alcoholic insomniac with severe anxiety issues. I am in general friendly, attractive enough to not be ugly, have a sense of humor, well kept, have interests, hobbies, educated, active, ect, normal guy. I feel for some reason that if I were to move to another city I would not have the constant feeling of misery that has haunted me for the last decade. Everything about this place is misery. Never have I had a friendly neighbor, only the opposite, rude. The general public; rude. Girls; Rude. Guys; well, they don't really qualify as "men" but they aren't boys. One the bus? Rude. At the grocery store? Rude. There are places that I frequent on a daily basis and the employees that see me everyday act as if they have never seen me before everyday. This has happened at multiple places. Baristas? Rude. Eye contact? Nope. Smiles? Nope. Pretty girl walking down the street on a sunny day, maybe I'm in a good mood enough to flash a smile and just say hello? Nope, head down staring at the ground walking very quickly so as not to ever have an interaction with anyone in public. People in cars? bad drivers and full of rage. People on bikes? Entitled assholes who think the world owes it to them to have a clear path at all times. Joggers on crowded sidewalks. People who don't understand 4 way stops. The Stranger? Shitty extreme leftist publication. Save the children people, I cant walk down the street anywhere without wanting to punch someone in the face for making some smart remark to my dress in hopes of getting my attention so they can get some money. I make 12 dollars an hour and I'm trying desperately to move the hell out of here. Pseudo Hippy Communal living types, bad. UW students, it is the stupidest people in the world who think they are the smartest (the extreme leftists again). Homeless youth? I have no more sympathy. I have found a kid sleeping in the dumpster a few times while taking out the recycling, he seemed a little cold, however his facial tattoos didn't seem to be keeping him warm. I have worked in the corporate world, shitty people. I have worked for small indie business, shitty people. Lived on Capital Hill, annoying self righteous hipster gay people. Lived in Fremont, annoying "wacky" people and bros/bro bitches. U District; idiot college kids, rapists, drug dealers and street kids. Greenlake; yuppie fuckers. Want to take the bus? Want to stand in the cold for 15 min. because it is late? Want to be alienated by the psychopaths? Want to be treated like a psychopath because you tried to engage someone in conversation. The women here? Cold, very cold. That is unless you have dated one of their friends or you fall into their very limited range of people they will date if they aren't already in a longterm relationship (everyone, yet no one gets married). The concept of dating here is nonexistent, it is either dedicated partner or whore (extreme leftists). The weather? Chinese water torture, drip drip drip. The general appearance of the place and the people? Schlubby, unkempt, tacky, tasteless, confused.
All of this soul sucking shittyness (and more, I could go on) left me suicidally depressed in the middle of last winter, drinking myself into oblivion nightly in my basement apartment (all I could afford) cutting my arms with whatever sharp thing I could find closest. Fortunately, I am now on the road to recovery. But goddammed if this place isn't the most backward, fucked up, confused, entitled, ignorant, extremist, dorkfest, soggy drag of a town. It reeks of depression, it is a black hole.